Living a Life.... Living My Life .....

“It is a sin to live”! Perhaps no one has ever directly said that to you! But think about it for a second! How many things in life you enjoy that is considered a sin from a religious person’s point of view???

I have had my brain strangles by some odd thoughts recently; well not quite odd! Just different from my way of thinking! About future and about what I have to make of it!!! Well what do I have to make of it?!! I have spent a while thinking about it! My aunt asked me what’s my 10 years plan a while back and my answer was: a secure job that pays quite well so I can live easily and make my way towards having my own company! Be known for what I do! And a few more things which did not sound so important at that time!

But a lot has happened since, and now thinking back, I am a little sad about my point of view then! I have seen so many people around me, living their whole life to make a life that they can enjoy when they are older, having a good house, having a good job, earning loads of money. But this was not all possible except by spending all their time working and working! Sadly mainly because we live in a capitalist world! They had the hope of living a comfortable life when they are older, but it just became impossible for so many reasons!

Now my perspective!!! I don’t want my share of life to be like that! I want to live a life that I can live! I want to have the good things in life! Good things that make you happy from inside and not from outside! I want to live a life that makes me happy! And fortunately I have realised that I cannot live that life unless I live it for now and not live it for the future!

“We spend too much time living in the ‘what if’ and need to learn to live in the ‘what is.”

Rev. Leroy Allison

Well I want to always have a home! And by a home I don’t mean a place, I mean a thing! Somewhere that I can rely on! When everything is wrong, I can just go there and know that I will feel better there!

I want love, I want to know that that home has someone that I belong to, It can be a child or it can be a partner, it can be my parents! (Hopefully not cats though)

I want to go around the world on adventures (this may sound to people reading this in a few hundred years or sooner, when they go to other planets, but yeh, it is a good enough dream for my time).

I want to do things that take my breath away! I want to keep being reckless as some people call it! There is a symbolic saying about what we do in life: they say when a boat moves forward, it does not leaves ripples at its back and it may cause a revelation under the water, but it sure will not stay that way and its only a matter of time until they fade away ( unless u take pictures of it and hang it on your wall so you always feel bad when you look at them! Your choice really) or you can let go and feel free of it!

Of course I want a job and house, but I have learnt this in life, that when you have a family, it does not matter how big or small your house is; because when your family supports and loves you, everything is fine!

My advice for you:

Make love, be reckless because nothing lasts, love everyone and forget easily.... make a home, not a castle that you barely can call it a house, let alone home..inspire people with whatever it is you do! and have faith! Not necessarily in something called God, but have faith in nature! Nature can be cruel but its like that mother that gets angry at you, only to make you learn and become stronger and then make more love, because that’s where it all began!

“Your body is free but your heart is in prison. To release your heart, you simply reverse the process which locked it up. First you begin to listen for messages from your heart—messages you may have been ignoring since childhood. Next you must take the daring, risky step of expressing your heart in the outside world. . . . As you learn to live by heart, every choice you make will become another way of telling your story. . . . It is the way you were meant to exist. If you stop to listen, you’ll realize that your heart has been telling you so all along.”

Martha Beck, "Finding Your Own North Star

Love & Peace

Rona Sinni

MY DRUNKEN LOVER ....

Onceagain I want to write something perhaps not very different from what we knowand what we always hear, but its again one of those things that is required to be said over and over again! Its about another one of those feelings that has its own properties. I know the chemistry behind it (like the actual one, withscientific reasons etc) but to be honest, I think science sometimes destroys the beauty of things if we think about it too much! So at times, I decide to ignore it, even though I am usually the most logical person around.... It canbe annoying sometimes.

Anyways....I am writing this not because I am in love, but because I have seen a film thisafternoon with my favourite actor in....And just the way he acts, it makes mefeel like I am in love even if there is no one around to love at that moment.  There is that sentence from Marie Curie that says:”nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. “ ...

Perhapsif we understood love, we would try to get a grasp of it and make it go ourway.

Butwhat is love?!!! The Persian poet Hafiz, many times in his poems references tobeing in love, by describing it as being drunk after drinking wine, and everytime he talks about it, he asks the bearer provider to pour him more wine andmake him more and more drunk.

“Thecorner of the tavern is my altar, where I pray
at dawn, the mantra of the Old Magi, I say.
Fear not if the harp plays not at sun's morningascent
my morning cry of repentance is the music I play.
Thank God, free from beggars and kings, away, Istay;
Homage, to the beggar at the door of the Beloved,I pay.
For Thee, in the mosque and the tavern, my time, Ispent;
By God, from this intent, I never ran nor walkedastray.
Only, Angel of Death's blade can uproot my tent
running from love and grace has never been my way.
From the time that I made my search for Thee myintent
I lean upon the throne on which the sun may lay.
Not your fault was the sins that were put intoyour clay
nonetheless accept them, Hafiz, and good tastedisplay.”

Hafiz

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Idon’t know if you have read my “Leily and Madman” post, but I very much like torefer back to it. When the king found out about Madman being so much in lovewith leyli, he asked his people to bring her in, so he can see what is it abouther that made Madman to be so crazy for her. When they brought her in, heturned to leyli and said: “Madman became crazy for you, but you are not anybetter that the other pretty people”, Leyli answered back” It is because youare not Madman”. This is the bright red point of the story. You are not mylover and you are not looking at me through his eyes.

Ivery much like to think that this is what love is, but then again I look aroundme and I see everyday many people around me saying they love someone for manydifferent reasons other than this. When the eyes give order to the brain andnot the other way round, they fall in love with someone because of what theysee and they don’t see the person ina different way because they love them.

Fallingin love is not about having someone to fill the empty space next to you whenyou feel alone, but it should be a reason itself.  To love someone and then the hole will befilled. Loving is that feeling, when the person you love talks, you feel theworld has gone silent and no one else is around. The moment you feel when theperson you love looks at you, you want to melt. You feel nearly unconsciousconstantly. You are so drunk on his love, that you are paralysed and unable todo anything else. The moment you want to just put your hands behind your headand stop breathing for a second and then take that one deep breath and sigh everytime you think of them. Every time you look in their eyes, it is not to gettheir attention, but it is because you want to drawn in them.  Every time you drawn in their eyes, you don’t wantto leave there .... . You have thirst for their lips, and its not to calm youdown, but it’s to get you deeper in love with them.

“Iam drunk with Love, bearer, bring me some wine
This feast without a full jug, will run down anddecline.
Describing that beauty, neither seems right and nor fair,
Musicians play on, and wine-bearer bring me wine.
My stature is now curved, and your rivals from nowon
Won't tempt me through this door, with no otherwill align.
In my longings for Thy face, I, and hopefuldesires,
In hope of union, I, fancy, and dream combine.
Intoxicated with those eyes, where do I find mycup?
Lovesick with vision of those lips, of answersthere's no sign.
Hafiz, in search of the good, why put your hearton the line?
How can you quench one's thirst, through a miragethat may shine?”

Hafiz

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I lovehow Hafiz does not think there is a difference between lust and love; you mayhave lust without love, but you can’t have love wit out lust.

“Othou, who considers separation of lovers fair
Keep lovers away from your side with your glare
I am thirsty in my desert, lead me to clear waters
With the hope of God's mercy, this path of yoursyou forbear.
You stole my heart, dissolved my soul, but
Better than you have treated me, of the otherstake care.
When my foes drink their wine from my cup
I cannot accept it, if fair you declare.
Listen fly; Phoenix's flight-path is not your air
You ruin your own name, and us you tire and wear.
Through your own deeds, you are now poor & bare
From complaints & your cries, I beg you, usspare.
Even kings, through their service fill their chair
Hope for nothing, if you will not do your share.”

Hafiz

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Love& Peace

RonaSinni